Feeling like an OUTCAST..

I normally dont write exactly how I feel from deep within here on our family blog, but lately I have been feeling well....like an OUTCAST! Im not sure what it is, but I have felt like I lost myself. Im not sure if its just one of those non-period days, but just one of those days that turned into weeks, which turned into months, and turning into more years. I have always loved the south and thought that once Joey got out of the military that moving to the state and town he lived in his high school years would so fun, cause its in the south. BOY WAS I WRONG!!!! I have been told that Georgia is a friendly place and since I was going to be by a military base I figured it would be super friendly(since I grew up by a military base). Once again BOY WAS I WRONG! I have met a few people here and came pretty close to them and then the military sent them away. Others I have met, well are rude, snobby, and stuck up. Now out of the few I have met, there is one I still talk too that is here.......Ok I talk to her like once every 3 mths and she is one of those that HAS TO HAVE A MAN! So much so she married a guy after knowning him for 3 days. Ya, thats what I said. So now that she is having her "ISSUES" with him that is when she wants to call. I mean, Im here for my friends no matter if I agree with there choice. Shit we are all human, but I feel used. So now when she does call I dont answer, but at the sametime, I want too. The closest 2 friends I have are in Florida and North Carolina. The one in North Carolina is keeping herself so busy now that her husband is over seas and working mad hours. But then again I understand. At least she calls to say "HEY BABE, IM FINE AND SO ARE THE GIRLS. JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW SO YOU DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT US. LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALL!" Now the one in Florida, she is in the same boat as me. So we talk, but not as much like we used too. Ok cause we both figure that the places we are living at is bringing us down and we dont like to talk with anyone on most days. (We talked about this the other day....very rare moment) I dont know, sometimes, in certain places and situtations you find out who your TRUE FRIENDS ARE.!, and I can tell you my friend from North Carolina always know when I need a cheering up. Like I tell her, her 6th sense is the Lydia Cheering Up Sense. Anyways, I so want to move back home. I miss getting calls to hang out, having unexpected guest coming over, and just having people around who I KNOW wants to be around me and likes to have my company. I can HONESTLY say I HATE THIS PLACE!